Perfect Problem Part 2

So here I am, in the midst of trying to make up for my self-induced lack of blogs by writing as many as I can in my waning hours of Monday, when I hear a massive whoop of excitement come crashing through the front door. My roommate, who shall remain anonymous, is a person who has told me straight up that he prefers skiing to sex, and had by that point gone mad with sheer glee. The rest of my roommates soon joined him in hollering and shouting incoherently about Bozeman’s current weather conditions, dancing and stomping, which from down here in the basement sounds like way too much like thunder for me to be comfortable about the structural integrity of our house. That’s when they presented me with a problem that is as perfect for this class as I can think of:

“JOOEEE! GET THE FUCK UP HERE AND BUILD A SNOWFORT WITH US!!!!””

Now, I have a lot of blogging to do. A lot. And I’ve got play rehearsal in an hour. I need this time to get work done. Joining them would be massively irresponsible in light of the situation. I yelled back negatively, which they did not appreciate, but eventually they left me alone to blog. 

So I started working on a cool blog about Bruce Lee (which will still get posted), when I realized something: if there is one thing I have learned from this class, it is the importance of paying attention. The best working, albeit cliché (Jonah-does calling it a cliché make it less cliché ?), philosophy that I know that illustrates an attentive lifestyle is “live in the moment.” If that is the case, then wouldn’t me staying inside and blogging mean I have failed to apply the lessons from this class to my actual life? Isn’t that the whole point of education in the first place, to teach others things that will expand their worldview, and therefore improve their lives? It sounds like their having fun out there. 

I’m obviously still inside writing this, so apparently I prioritize long term success over the short term. But what if I die on my way to rehearsal for this silly school play I’m in? What would that make of my priorities? Isn’t every moment be the moment your entire life has led up to? I still have time to go outside.

Why is staying in here and blogging instead the more responsible thing to do? Why do I feel like I’m failing at the class I want so badly to succeed in by staying, when it’s staying here and blogging that’s the thing that’s supposed to allow me to succeed? These arguments keep looping back on each other, and it’s all so stupid: it’s just a Monday night and a simple yes or no question. And I said no. And it’s driving me crazy. 

They just came back inside. I gotta go to that rehearsal now. I’m really confused, and I’m sorry if I let you guys down by handling the last hour the way I did. I’ll be posting more blogs later tonight, perhaps I’ll come to some closure on this whole thing.